Mistress Mercury, 

Prior to Friday the 22nd of September 2023, maybe not even a year ago, if you had asked me then I would have passed on this experience in the blink of an eye. “Why?” you might ask. I have no clear explanation to it; I just wasn’t positive to the idea of being so open with my sexuality. But after long talks back and forth with my boyfriend, Kyle, we decided that this would be an acceptable and safe option to try out. A compromise between us. I was kind of curious about how this all would pan out. It was both a much talked about, but also spontaneous decision, and I was so horribly nervous in the days before. This is all very new to me, as it is Kyle who have introduced me to this “side” of sex, to BDSM and kinks. I was as I see it, compared to now, very vanilla prior to meeting him. I have experienced a lot of firsts with him to be sure. 

The day came around, and there I found myself outside your place.  It was a chill in the air as we rang the doorbell, and Mistress beeped us in. The feeling of nervousness was, as previously, very present in me. But there was also curiosity, a strong curiosity, what was going to happen beyond this door? I was hoping this would be a positive surprise. 

Beyond my nervousness I didn’t think a lot about it in the week before, I kind of decided to be as “blank” as possible. My mind didn’t really manage to think up any possible scenarios, like what could happen in a session like that. It felt confusing to me that I was more nervous about that than when I moved to another country. Or maybe it’s natural? 

When the door opened, I saw a pretty lady, the Mistress. As I stepped inside, I felt like I could breathe out for the first time in many hours. Still nervous of course, but a little calmer. The temperature inside was comfortable. Now we had reached the destination for the night. I felt warmly greeted by Mistress, and my nerves was further calmed down when I was presented with an explanation about how this would play out, and the rules we had to abide by. As the explanation went by, my nervousness was replaced by a kind of excitement I have never really felt before. I don’t think I have given someone other than my boyfriend this much control over myself before. Or rather, given someone other permission to have that kind of control. If that makes sense? When I was told to undress this sort of giddy feeling appeared in me. For each garment that disappeared, the more of this giddy sensation built up. I can’t explain it, it was kind of freeing in a way. Then when I received the collar, it started, as explained by Mistress earlier in the evening. Now I would get to see what I had agreed to do, what kind of adventure was it going to be.

It was very fun to be blindfolded and tied up, back-to-back, with Kyle. Not only could I feel the tingling sensation of Mistress’ touching my own body. But it was also wildly exciting to feel Kyle react to what was done to him. Like we were told, I tried to feel into how he felt during this play. Feel out how he reacted to whatever was done to him, while still remembering to breathe. It made me very horny; it made me want more. I was so happy that there were multiple activities including us both, it was very enjoyable to be connected to my loved one like that. It was a very different feeling from “normal” sex. Being able to feel him jolt and shiver of pleasure, together with me. Being invited to contribute to activities that was mostly meant for him was also arousing, and it made me very happy to be included as well. I enjoyed the atmosphere created in the apartment, doing what we were doing. More than I thought I would. I felt very much present for the whole session, but at the same time I felt like I had some kind of out-of-body experience. Like my mind was floating on a cloud, observing everything that was happening. 

It was a very interesting experience to be sure, and I feel like I learned a lot from Mistress, like tying up the cock and balls for example. It was very fun to see the technique, and I am eager to try it on him as well. It has taken some time to “land” after that experience. The afterglow is kind of still lingering, which is a very nice feeling. Energizing even. It had me struggling to sleep for some days, but not in a negative way. I was just thinking a lot about it, and the feelings and emotions tied to it. A thought can suddenly present itself at work, or when I try to sleep or at the gym. I agree with Kyle that this is something we should try again, it was an exciting experience that I do not regret. Even if I was very skeptical before. This was a very positive thing that happened to me, and I hope to explore it further! I still want to try electroplay. I have never done this before, but since I have a pretty high pain tolerance, I believe I am going to be fine. A little, tingling, pain is just fun and exciting. We have also talked about him wanting to co-top me, which is something I might let happen, the curiosity is kind of coming and going. I see now that there is a lot of things I might want to try out!

Thank you, Mistress, for a beautiful experience with my boyfriend!